Each one of us at some point of time in life, struggle to realize the meaning of our existence and thats when we face the quarter life crisis, a phase in life where life takes a turning edge leaving adolescence without accepting the fact that we are growing old. It feels like everything is changing without any plans, without any preparations. It seems like it happened yesterday when bunking lectures to watch movies, canteen treats, the stalls for a cup of tea outside the college, friends birthday parties to be celebrated whole month long, studying hard for the exams to get a perfect score and those strikes that helped to survive those exams, sitting in the class texting about how hot the teacher is, hostel shouting when the result used to come out, long lines in the morning to take a bath and if getting late then always reaching college in the second lecture and to be thrown out of the class and many other sweet memories which can never come back, all we are left with is a smile on your face. Quarter life crisis is when you stop into the crowd and realize what exactly you want from life, you start feeling insecure about future and yourself at the same time and start realizing that people are selfish now and maybe those friends who were close to you are not in contact with you anymore, what we don't realize is that they are realizing the same thing.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you'd be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to start at the bottom and are scared. Observing others makes you more perplexed, you start competing with the world and realize that life has changed upside down. Things has changed spontaneously and people too but what you don't realize is you too have changed yourself in the journey.
At this point of time you start crashing yourself in smoking and drinks to come out of the imbalance but don't realize that your family is still with you in any situation. You get your heart broken with a long relation and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. Strong emotions suddenly look temporary and feelings look void. Life seems dull and worthless. You worry about loans, money and future that has never came in life yet, you realize life is still missing with the life you always wanted.
But what you may not realize that everyone who reads this is relating it. But let me tell you what you should realize for sure, we are in our best of times and in worst too, never let your dreams to crash and never let yourself to crash in those dreams.
Upasana Wilson
2 April, 2011
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